Tuesday, 29 March 2011

My Second Blogged Essay

I am starting to see by looking at my peers' blogs that this style of working is enabling me to learn from my peers and them from me, almost without me even realising I am learning. I am reading about other people's perspectives on similar topics and finding out how other practice teachers or university lecturers approach their students and apply the Professional Standards Framework.

Still not received any feedback yet so unsure if I have got the correct style of writing. This blog was easier to write than the first though - I didn't feel as stuck at the outset.




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Sunday, 20 March 2011

My First Blogged Essay

I found it strangely challenging to write a blog instead of an essay. I had been expecting it to be a relatively easy piece of work. I knew it was supposed to be more reflective than an essay and less academic than an essay but I found it extremely difficult to articulate my thoughts and feelings at postgraduate level without sounding "fluffy" (for want of a better word) since I felt my usual structure had been removed. I didn't feel able to express half of what I wanted to in 500 words. My feeling is that I have not gone into enough depth or been critical enough. I do not feel I managed to analyse myself in this blog. I did not reach a natural completion of feel fulfilled the way a completed essay usually feels. Although I did have the sense of relief that the deadline had been met and in plenty of time. I was also told to only provide 2-3 references which I went over. I don't really know which ones I could have removed but I sense that is a bit of the old me. At eighteen I would go out and collect loads of articles. Then I would try to find a reason to include an article in my work even though it did not belong as if to prove I had done the research. It takes a lot to let go. Even after studying at postgraduate level for nearly five years I still struggle with that habit. All in all though it was quite a relaxed assignment and I am looking forward to receiving comments from my tutors. I have 3 more essay-blogs to go so I am hoping to up my game from here!




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Monday, 14 March 2011

Exasperation

I find myself exasperated at recent events. I cannot distil them into meaningful occurrences or explain why the feelings I have felt have been so strong. I feel as though my brain is squashed flat inside my head and I cannot think in a logical or rational manner. I have lost a piece of myself somewhere. I am frantically searching for it.

The things around me which I thought made sense do not. I am trying to fit them into the world I know or thought I knew. People are cruel. Some of those people are close and some more distant. I know no cruelty from strangers.




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